I have been saying for a while that I don’t want to hide my DID anymore. But I do. I think it is partly habit; we hide to blend in. We don’t want to be noticed. There is a Japanese proverb that says, “The nail that sticks up will be hammered down.” While it is a cultural thing that tells people not to make waves or cause trouble, I feel it can apply to me as well. Anybody that knows me personally will tell you I have a “who cares what other people think” attitude, however, I only act that way sometimes. I have decided that I would like all of my ‘friends’ to be comfortable being themselves and even wearing clothes they like. I have set a modest budget for clothes, which Bobbie is very excited about. I am still worried that people I know will see me acting differently and distance themselves; recently some friends shared some music with me that is on my favorites list right now. It was not related to this topic, but it was timely and appropriate.
The first one is Brave by Sarah Barelles:
And from another friend Secrets by Mary Lambert:
Enjoy. Be Brave. Live life your way.
On a semi-related note, I heard a quote recently, “Silence breeds shame.” Not much to say about that, I just liked it. I suppose that could be applied to how I feel disclosing my DID.